you no the kids in class that bring there lap tops cuz there to lazy to write out the notes and when u have down time instead of going potty u hold it to check ur tumblr……fml….ohh then i check fb….then i check my computer if it needs a system update….then i wait and beg the teacher to let me go potty….lmfaooo! newayss…school…it blows…and dont let anyone tell you differently….cuz no matter what…it still sucks<3 well off to bio class now
So I’m in college and I’m supposed to be having a blast but instead I’m homesick n developed an allergy to dairy….fml
in a cold body of water, float to the bottom and look up while the pressure and cold hits my body like a thousand tiny needles peirsing my skin, ill look at the beautiful view of the sun hitting the water, till i shut my eyes and say good bye….
deep shit, right? well thats my mood, because i rather be numb thn feel the pain im in.
i told the guy i love that i love him and i told him i ment it… heres how the convo went…:
him: ” chelsea, i care about you a lot. i really do. and i love you but im not sure if im ‘in love’ with you yet. like i no that sounds bad but it really isnt”
me: “got ya”
him: “:/ im sorry you no i fell in love with you before and when we broke up i was a wreck for qitet some time and it was embarrassing to be honest, it took time to get over u seeing someone else but i did, and its going to talk me a little to get my feelings all thought out and realized i think”
him: “awe dont be upset im sorry :/”
me: “dont be sorry u dont feel the same and its chill i cant force u do like me or anything”
me: “why :(“
him: “you sound really sad and it makes me sad”
ummm really!!!!!!!!!!! i sound really sad…..WTF noooo im fucking thrilled that i told u i loved u and u turned me down…..but its okayyy im just a fucking option for u cuz u get booty from me…….and not to mention u get booty, u just lived with me for a week, and im the only girl u talk to. but u dont feel any thing. wow i wish i could have ur great ass talent…and then for today u wanna no why im acting differently….? hmmmmmmm i wonder the fuck y. how about we switch this shit up and see how u feel…… yea thats what i thought u dip shit….so sick of not being someones well someone…instead im someones option and i dont think i can do it anymore…… </3
Fuck it and fuck you. Im done and sick of this shit, why in the hell should i give u everthing i have for u to give me 2% of what u got, and then when i point it out u say u dont do that shit….rly!! Becuz then u do it again, and honestly im done, im done counting how many times u do it even if it is to prove u wrong…. U fucking dumbass, u dont even see that i love u, but i just dont care, this is the exact reason we broke up, is becuz i give me all n get NOTHING in return, yet i cant see myself with out u, fuck everything, fuck!!! Good fucking night.
soo i move in 4 dayss and idk what imma do with my life….im loosing everything and that includes my insainity….
i lovee him soo much that it kills me, i have this deep down feeling that once i leave i will be replaced….and he says it wont happen but i feel it would….he can find someone better…someone more his type then me….and why should he hold back…better yet…y should i hold him back……ughhhhh i just wanna scream “i love you” to him…but i dont think he fells that way and i deff dont want to be rejected by him and i dont want to make it akward either……..fuckkk!
and ughhh pierods…..WHAT THE FUCK…. are they really nessary…..i didnt fucking think so…..what ever imma go stuff my fucking face and cry about it laterr…..
</3 im broken hearted and left to pick it all up by myselff…..glue cant even fix this shit….
well actually……waking up tomorrow and im packing…going to the bank..and seeing my babyy=) then im boarding a plane….and from there ill be going to vegas<3
imma take alll the pictures i can<3 but once i come back it will be only serious business!!!! moving jessicas stuff to my house and working my last 2 days at lovly fucking burger king….then im off to ceder point with my friends and my babyyyy<3 then the next 12 hours from that i will be loading a uhaul to start my new life….but its okayy i have skype and im only 2 and 1/2 hours awayy…..
now that i said 12 hours to live…and im listening to my class song…it makes me wonder…why dont pll live there lives like theres 12 hours to live….althoo that probably would be bad…cuz some ppl would kill ppl and others would be happy for a change….
welll anyways…i got him on my mindd!!!!! but i gotta get some sleep sooooooo byee tumblr…for a week<3
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